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Friday, August 07, 2009

Sooo last night after work I got to hang out with Ben....we havent in a long time. First Kade and Roger were there for an hour or so to watch the red soxs game but once they lost they both wanted to go home. Sooo it was just ben and I. Still havent done anything but everytime we hang out we get close and closer.

He wont make the first move and I get toooo nervous to make the first move. Apparantly though he wanted me to when he got home he told me that. Well he comes back next week. I think I might need a couple of drinks for confidence to make the first move.

We were strongly flirting though. We had like a pillow fight and tickle war. It was pretty cute, i lost horrible at it. Then we were just playing a word game and he said 'tea bag' I ended up lookin at his crotch right after and he just looks at me and laughs, it was kinda embarassing but funny.

When he left to say good bye he came up and gave me a hug and just stood there looking at me, i soooo wanted to kiss him just then im pretty sure thats what he was trying to get my to do to but i chickened out big time. Its soo nice to look into his eyes and to be so close to him.

It was a good night im in a better mood now. Then tonight I get paid and its loes party...i honestly have nooo clue whats gonna happen there tonight but I plan on getting drunk and staying the night there. Sucks I got work tomorrow but Ill manage lol.

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Wednesday, August 05, 2009

Sooo last night after everyone not wanting to hang out I ended up going over to jeanas for her little party she as having. There two other girls there temporarily but they had to leae early soo it went back to just me and jeana. We DID NOT like that there were other girls there. We just dont like girls lol. Specially if you meet one at a party.

Well we played ring of fire and just chilled around makin jokes and talkin a shit. Jeana and I went to go pick up kade and jake to come join us for a bit. After we were done at jeanas i dropped kade off at home and then jake and I headed back to my place to chill.

We put the movie devils rejects in and we are starting to get more comfortable when we hang out and stuff like joke around and talk more. I was talking about how the big nasty chick on the movie was sooo cute joking around and he goes ohhh dont make me slap you and he playfully did lol. All we did was kiss this timee. I kinda kept falling asleep :X lol. It was 6 in the morning and I was tired all day what do you expect lol.

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Tuesday, August 04, 2009

Alright sooo last night was pretty awesome went over to loes house to hang out with her and sam. It was a little girls night hang out. Sippin on Bud Lime and smoking ciggerettes by the pool while talking about sex stories, times in the past, future plans, and the people we know. It was a good time.

After that I went to Jeana and Alans for a tiny bit and played cards drank a beer with jeana and kade. After that Kade and I went to my place to make a midnight pizza which was a lot of fun. Videoed it and whatnot lol. Also watched Miss.March which was the movie for timmy and I. Though its a great movie sooo I wont let that stop me from liking it and enjoying it.

Just now I got home from chillin with Ethan for a couple hours. He is soooooo hot. So nice on the eyes haha. He wears hats to, I am a sucker for guys that wear hats. That is a true fact. I think it is so attactive. Well we chilled outside for a bit talkin about things since I havent seen him in a couple months.....stupid john. After that we played video games for about an hour I played the sims and he played boxing. It was pretty much fun.

Then we got hungry soo he drove us to Steak and Shake to get some food and we at it out by his pool. Though on the way back to his house some idiot was a centimeter away from hitting his car like he might of actually touched it for a secound I dont know I felt the other car.

It was nice though.....no kiss or anything. I got a hug and he said he will hit me up this week so we can chill again. Its a slow process but that makes it exciting and everything ten times better once it happens.

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Monday, August 03, 2009

Alright soooo my saturday night suprisingly turned out amazing right when I got off work Steven called me and invited me over to his place. Sooo now Im super excited since I haven't seen him since the 11th. Which isnt to long ago but it feels like a centuary for me.

His new place is nicer then the apartment, but still in the ghetto which sucks he lives off of waters, sooo i drive by blakes road to get to him. Im stilll dissapointed by that, blake was such a good guy and everyone knows how much I need a goo guy in my life for once. Whatever.....

Well I get there and Kade calls me for a kegger soo I convinced Steven to go. It was a bunch of fun. There was this girl hitting on Steven that he knew years back and tried to get with her back then. I thought the whole thing was funny I wasnt getting jealous or anything. Cause Steven kept pulling me closer and closer and kept kissing my forhead or cheek and saying how amazing I am. She warned me he was a heartbreaker and I told her I already know I have known him for 3 years now. Then steven told the story about us the past 2 years how we were never together but stayed around by each other helpin each other out.

He was boyfriend for the party pretty much it was a good feeling but I still dont want to be his girlfriend even though I love him. Isnt this just boggle your mind?

When we got back to his place we had sex and we are just soooo much more comfortable with each other now. He went down again.....he doesnt do that?!?! Its confusing. Afterwards we were laying down and he was talking he was telling me he really thinks him and I are meant to be. He has the softest skin ever, i love it.

Johns friends were harassin me at work yesterday calling me john sweeney askin me where he is wondering why I dont like him anymore and asked why Im crazy. Then apparantly I have a nice rack on me too......i just ignored them walked to my car and peaced the fuck outta there before john could even show up.

Im textin with Ethan right now we are gonna hang out soon and we are EXTREMELY flirting right now. Hes mowing the lawn without a shirt and we are talking about that hahaha. Maybe we will hang out tonight ;) that will be awesome.

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Saturday, August 01, 2009

What do I want?

I want a VW vehicle that i really like and it fits who I am. I want a basset hound puppy that is all mine to love and be loved back. I want my grateful dead tattoo on my upper back. I want to start my life as a hair dresser and be succesful at it. I want to take a road trip and take gorgeous photo. I want my toungue pierced. I want long hair. I want a boy to waste time with, to sleep next to, and to open jars and bottles at my house when i cant. I want to grow older with my friends and see where life takes them and us together. I want to stay a kid at heart and always see the beauty I see in life.

Jake was texting me quite a bit tonight he wanted to hang out, I turned him down cause I was with Jessi and Mike watching a movie and it was gonna be late by the time I got home. He hasnt gotten any yet sooo I dont think he is gonna go anywhere, he'll text me to hang out again soon. He kinda reminds me of a puppy I realized today.

Ethan was texting me, hes in orlando right now and we are going to hang out when he gets back in town sunday or monday. He told me I can play the sims on his laptop and I told him thats quite daring of him since I am highly addicted to the game, he just said I know and laughed at me. I havent hung out with him in 2 months and I was dating John at the time so I couldnt flirt nowwww I can. He told he he will teach me his ways of living it up big. :)

Work was awesome I was on top of my game and delivered the most pizzas today outta everyone.....walkin away with eighty bucks. Sweeeeeet. Though I cant spend it! I need to save up 100 and get a new card and start putting my money in the bank or something. Gotta save my money up. Get well over a hundred then buy one of the things I really want. Like my toungue piercing.

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